Have You Ever Wondered

Have you ever wonder what your purpose on this earth is? Why did God put you in the exact place that you are now? Why? I know I have and I wonder about these things constantly. Like what is the exact plan for my life, and where am I going on this rollarcoaster ride called LIFE. Sometimes I feel as if I am fallin off the ride and that I will never be able to see the sky again. That Im falling into a never ending hole. But then there are other times when I feel as if Im flying high above the sky and that I dont have a care in the world. But then I always come crashing down to reality. Why is it that once we feel like things are going good we, fall back down again? Right now the only thing I can think of is Gravity. I know that I have been called to walk a life that is modeled after Christ, but why at time does that seem so hard to do. Why does my flesh speak so loudly? Why do I listen to it? For example, tonight as I went on a run I began to think about what I might be missing by not going to college: the parties, the friends, and the different opportunities that might have come out of them. But then I also think of how blessed I am to not of had to walk down that path to find myself. The the next thing I begin to think about is the people in my life. How exactly am I suppose to touch their lives. I mean what could I possible bring to the table. I am after all only 21 years of age. How can God possible use me at such a young age. I mean should I have to grow up first. But as I write this my mind goes to Daniel, Esther, David, and others who were just teens as well and God used them to do mighty things. But I will never be a Queen or kill a giant or be in a den with lions. Although all of those would be really sweet. So what in the world is God going to do with my life. As I am taking classes to ministry work, I begin to see a small light of hope of what my life might look like. I see in my future having a youth group and working with the youth of tomorrow. To be able to influence those around me with my story. But then I am always cautious about thinking about my future, because those dreams have be crushed before. But one thing that I do know is that God is faithful in life even when it seems as though He isnt even there. And He will always be there, through thick and thin. So even though my mind will wonder about what is to come in this life, one thing that I know for sure is that my God will always be there and will never leave my side.