Brick by brick the walls I built begin to crumble
Frantically I try to repair my walls with no success
Knowing that once my wall completely crumbles
My refuge and safe place is forever in ruins
In search of a new refuge amongst the rubble
All I manage to do is stumble about and battered and bruised I become
Every fear and failure present, every dream and self ambition a counted for
Tears begin to race down my face as every comfort has been stripped away
To my knees I fall as helplessness begins to take over my being
Looking to the sky I cry aloud for help, for a healing touch – a saving grace
While still uttering my plea, I hear someone sifting through the ruins
Slowly I turn to see who has answered my cries, afraid it’s just a dream
Cautiously I move towards him, watching his every move as he works
Continuing to break down the walls, I scream in disbelief
My protection, My hiding place – disappearing
Revealing my soul, my inner being
Slowly he turns to me and says “You cried for help, so let me!”
I sit down amongst my comforts and just watch in disbelief at this scene
These were the bricks that defined me, that made me who I was
Could it be that I really didn’t know who I was supposed to be?
For years I worked so hard to define my life
To build and maintain my wall of perfection and protection
As I sat watching, I realized how exhausted I had become
I had no stamina to protest, to prove my point, to show him I knew best
I tried to take in what exactly was happening but my eyes failed me
Then I heard him say listen with your heart, My Child
The kiss of the cool breeze on my face, the orchestra and choir of nature
I begin to let go of who I thought I was and sink into the rubble of myself
Slowly I reopen my eyes, again afraid it was just a dream, only to find nothing
All my dreams and desires, my plans and comforts – all gone
Frantically I search for something – only to find nothing but him – my rescuer
He just smiles and opens his arms
Cautiously I walk towards him, still wondering if it is all a dream
Looking into his eyes, I see who I truly am – who I was created to be
Side by side he shows me how to live, how to survive this new life
No more walls, No more masks are needed
For I found where my true comfort and refuge is
I found it in my Lord, my Savior Jesus Christ
